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[태그:] self reflection

  • At Night, I Want It. By Morning, I Don’t.

    Every night, there are foods I crave.

    Mostly spicy and intense ones.
    Gopchang—grilled beef intestines. Pasta.

    If I eat them, I fall asleep quickly.
    The next day, I always regret it.
    The number on the scale goes up,
    and waking up becomes harder.

    “I’ll definitely eat it tomorrow.”
    If I tell myself that and go to bed,
    at least there is no regret.

    The strange part is this:
    the next morning,
    the food still comes to mind—
    but I don’t want it anymore.
    The night before, it felt urgent.

    By morning,
    the desire is gone.

    A big betrayal of the brain.

    And when night comes again,
    it starts over.

  • Three Small Addictions

    I’ve always thought
    that once something becomes an addiction,
    it’s better to step away from it.
    Whatever it is.

    Lately, I think I might be addicted
    to three things.

    -Watching videos on my phone.
    -Caffeine.
    -Carbohydrates.

    When I wake up,
    I start playing videos
    without even thinking.
    After a meal,
    I almost automatically think about coffee.
    Even when I’m not hungry,
    carbohydrates circle around in my head.

    I told myself I should cut all three out.

    But I learned that breaking an addiction
    takes more willpower than I expected.
    Pulling something out of my mind
    when it keeps coming back
    is harder than it sounds.

    Two things seem to help.
    One is placing myself in a busy environment—
    especially when I’m around other people.
    The other is saying it out loud
    to my own brain:
    “You don’t need this right now.”

    I’m not free from them yet.
    But at least
    I’m no longer following them
    without noticing.

  • Can You Tell Me the Benefits of Thinking a Lot?

    I didn’t know this about myself, but I think a lot.

    I watch movies carefully. I read books slowly. Maybe the creators would be happy.

    And I spend a long time thinking about them.

    The downside is obvious. It takes too much time.

    And I’m still looking for the upside.

  • Why I Want to Be Seen but Also Want to Hide

    Sometimes I want to be seen by no one.
    Other times, I want many people to see me.

    This contradiction isn’t really a contradiction.

    The truth is,
    I never wanted to be invisible.
    I was just afraid of being judged.

    Now there’s no contradiction.
    And no lie.

  • Reality Is More Beautiful Than Imagination

    Reality has no choice but to be more beautiful than imagination.

    My imagination is made only of what already exists in my head.

    If someone asked me to imagine the most amazing car,

    I would probably combine

    the best features I know,

    the most beautiful colors I’ve seen,

    and the shapes I already find cool.

    But reality is different.

    In reality, things I never imagined appear.

    If I move, if I step outside my head,

    I might see something I never imagined.

    World,

    show me something I never imagined.